Is there something in your past you cannot face thinking about?  Was it done to you or did you do it?  Either way it is harmful if you hold onto the hurt or shame attached.  Throughout our life we are offered temptation of one sort or another.  When we look back some temptations were easily accepted as we explored the world and its ways. From these experiments we often have feelings still lingering deep within our psyche.  These hidden energies can cause havoc later in life but to get them to surface and be recognized can be difficult.   The emotional pain attached is the reason.   The quotation above says it all!  You cannot let go with out understanding that we have to forgive ourselves as well as others before we can actually let go. 

 

ARIZONA SUN

 

I woke up this morning and saw your golden rays upon my wall. Good morning, I thought,

 but no sooner did I speak, a feeling came over me…. through the window, I saw your light, the shade of days gone by….

Golden rays….rays of sunset, spread upon the land, the freshness of sunrise…. is not with you, 

rather I sense a benign effort at warmth and comfort. As though beneath your golden glow, hides the shadows of the night to come.

…….Arizona sun, why disguise as a new day?

Tell me… why so gloom?

Sunrise is glorious, stands bright, un-obscured, even on cloudy days,

Sun rays filter through and announcing ... hope…unfolding possibilities.

Yet you stand in the Eastern sky as an impostor would. There are those who this morning will rejoice,

Convinced in their delusion and your feeble attempts… but I am not one of them.

Rather, as I look upon your golden tentacles, reaching across the land….. I shiver….

Is it Mother!   Did she speak to you? What did she tell you? In her wind song she has whispered, to me….

That man, in his self-absorption long forgot…that she does not belong to him.

That she is beyond being parceled out, bombed, burned, owned, discovered and labeled by those who regard her as nothing less than common property.

….Did she tell you that only few mortals understand the depth of her glory, her magnitude, her magnificence.

That fewer still understand that she belongs to none but herself.

That No!  She is not ours to do as we wish. That a mother, she no longer is to us, she is ready to burst forth and has begun…..

Scratching unwanted parasites off her surface, as one would a mosquito from their skin.

Man-Child in his blindness has failed to see that she is transcending.

She is evolving beyond the mother role, the very one who for eons, unselfishly gave of herself, and unconditionally, nurtured her man child.                                                                                                              

But the man-child grew fat, confident and strong, in his satiation, the man-child forgot….

That all he owns came forth from her body.  That someday even his flesh will return to her.

He has forgotten, that but for her beneficence, he would not exist.

He has forgotten, and as is his nature, he blindly tramples on, wanting more…..because to man-child nothing is ever enough, and mother will always provide.

 

Arizona Sun, did she tell you that she holds no grievance against man-child.

As a good mother, she understands him. She only wishes to free herself from his bondage,

And RISE!

Arizona sun, Stop your feeble attempts at sunrise, I know what these golden colors mean.

As you stand in the Eastern sky on this new day, tell me!   Did you speak to her?

This sunset? Is it for mankind?                                                                          March 15, 2008 Chantal

 

LET’S ASK

This is the place to ask your questions. We can ask Margarite, the Healers, each other, or just ask.

 

Q. DID I DREAM THIS EXCHANGE?  “God is a cruel God!”   I turned on hearing these words responding by pointing out that God is energy and that man takes this energy and uses it to create with his thoughts which are the basis of his actions.  Therefore it is man that is cruel. “Yes,” he said, “But didn’t God create man?”

Please help me here.

 

A. God is energy, is love; everything is that energy before it takes form. In His wisdom He allows us to create with our thoughts and learn from our mistakes. What is it in your life now that you find cruel?  Your ‘dream’ experience is your soul, your God energy, allowing you to bring something to the surface to be dealt with.  Face whatever comes up for you, deal with it and let go.  It is not unusual to have doubts as to the existence of God or to blame God for situations that we find painful.  Doubt dealt with brings us closer to the Truth and the purity of God.  We are the energy that is God therefore we are that Divine love.  Your intention needs to be to deal with and release the feelings your memories and thoughts uncover; then you are on your way home!

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A TRIP TO HAITI

 

  This is the 2nd year I have traveled to Haiti on a medical mission with St. Paul's church in St Petersburg.  I went there so I can help people with dentistry and with the limited amount of resources available, I focused on doing only extractions for the people.  The work is overwhelming because no matter how many people you see, there seems to be a whole crowd of people who need the same, and you are only here for 1 week.  

 

   When I returned from the trip last year, I was depressed for a long while.  I was processing what I had seen, the incredible poverty, with what I had done.  I felt exhausted because it seems that no matter how much one did, it was never enough.   I would work an average of 10 to 12 hours a day, see an average of 20 patients and extract an average of 3-4 teeth per person.  On some patients I would have to extract all the teeth in their

mouth.   As a comparison, I usually see an average of 5-6 patients per day in my office in St. Pete.  While in Haiti, I felt that whatever I did was never enough.  St. Paul's church was very organized and anticipated the need for adjustment, and as a result we would have weekly reentry meetings where we would share our experiences and feelings.  I stopped feeling depressed when I talked to Margarite and to Dawn and both told me the same thing: It is what it is and just as I was doing these people a service by going there, they were doing me a service by being there. All was perfect.  That made a lot of sense.  

 

   My perspective of the trip this year was very different from last year's.    I saw the same amount of poverty and need.  I worked just as hard this year as last year.  This time it was a little better because there was an- other dentist who came along, so I did not feel so isolated and alone doing the work.  It was twice as overwhelming, though. 

   I found myself having very conflicting ideas about the people of Plein Mapou (the village we stayed at).  I could not understand why, at first.  I mean they struggle through life on a daily basis and they are in need of every possible thing, and we are there to help them, at least as much as we can for that week.   I finally realized over time why I was having some "funny feelings" about the people in the village:   I was actually angry at them.  I was at first suppressing it for the reasons given above:  They have nothing and need of every possible thing we can think of.  In addition, we are there to help them, at least for that one week.  I was angry because I realized that no matter what I did, and no matter what the group did, they wanted more and more. As a result, we kept giving because they are in need of everything, they need it all! 

  That was my first realization: We could not help make their pain go away no matter how much we gave away, whether it was service or material goods.  That part I understood and realized that we could not realistically solve their problem with the wave of a magic wand in 1 week.  They have survived before, they will survive in the future.   There was one thing that bothered me, though.   In their wanting more and more, we seemed to be putting ourselves in a situation where they appeared to blatantly take advantage of us and almost take it for granted that we are there to help them.  Except for a few people who openly appreciated the help we offered, most others would only be present to constantly ask for more and more. They like a necklace, they do not hesitate to ask for it. They like your shirt, they do the same. They like anything someone is wearing, they will feel free to make some demand.  We on the other hand are not helping the situation by giving it to them.  I realized that they are putting us in a situation where we really do not mind giving them these things, but we are not actually doing them any service by giving away anything and everything for nothing.  If anything, what we are doing is enabling them to be beggars and expect anything for free, because life has certainly been very hard for them.

  On the other hand, when it came for us to negotiate some arrangement so that they can help us help them, it always has to come with a price.  We had to pay every single supporting person to do any kind of job, from security, to cleaning up papers thrown on the ground by the patients while they were waiting for medical care.  When I asked some children to pick up the papers on the ground at the end of the day, they wanted to know how much money I was going to give them.  I explained that it was the community who actually messed up the place and that it showed lack of respect to us for leaving the place as such, and that it would help a lot to have a cleaner place, they did not seem to care.  

In another instance, I went to visit the home of a family whose picture I took the year before.  I did make an extra special effort to print these pictures because I knew how rare it was for them to get any family photos.  When I got there, all the mother had to tell me was how she was wondering why I hadn't sent anything to them in the past year.  Only the husband and the children were happy to see the pictures.  By the end of the week, we were swamped by people asking us for whatever we had on our backs.  One time I tried to barter with a boy for a couple of embroidered napkins.  In addition to the money he had asked for, some of us wanted to throw in some clothes and shoes for his mother.  I told him that we wanted an extra napkin for the whole deal.  He flatly refused.  He wanted his price and the clothes, no extra napkin.  That shocked me.  Eventually we agreed on his terms but I told him that in return for the clothes he had to do a good deed to someone else sometime in the next few months.  He agreed, but you could tell it was a "whatever" reaction.  

This happened all the time.  We would also feel bad for them and think the following:   ‘They need it more than we do’, but I could not help feel that we were being taken advantage of.  

  One thing I learned from Margarite at the Center is that we have to set our boundaries, and we have to learn to protect ourselves.  Well, I could see that most of the people in the group would let pity take over their feelings, and therefore not really grasping the complexity of the situation, giving in to the obvious reaction:  they felt guilty that they had so much, and pity for the Haitian people.  

   So this was my reaction when I left Haiti.  I felt I did my best to help whoever was lucky to be in the chair to receive dental care.  We had to turn away a lot of people, but we did all we could during that week.  I was the only one who pointed out the above issues and most of the group agreed that they did feel that way.  I pointed out that in the future we should probably put a lid on giving away the shirt off our backs routine, and to figure out a way to help and not loose sight of what we go there for, to give medical help. 

  I do not have any solutions to any of the above situations, but in being there I was able to realize that you have to stay in you own power wherever you are, whatever the situation, no matter how blatantly unfair it may seem.  You also have  to acknowledge any type of feelings that you are having and allow them to come to the surface so they can be recognized and assessed,  no matter how illogical or politically incorrect it may be.  These feelings may point out something that is not as obvious as what the common consensus may be, and may provide great learning experience about ourselves, the people and the world around us.

 

  I am now in a neutral position in terms of my feelings about the people from the village.  I believe I will return again.  I do feel some obligation toward them in terms of giving dental care.  I will try to enroll some other dentist friend to share the experience, which is a great one for anyone living in the US.  The one dentist who came along with us this year will not only return, but will also bring her husband.   We always form great bonds with whoever comes along in the medical mission.  We all acknowledged that we are becoming "missionary junkies".  The service and the experience is indeed incredible and for that I do thank the people of Haiti for being of service to us as well.

Huguette Duteau Salahuddin DDS, Palmetto Fla

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OFFICE CORRECTION –Keep up with the latest committee news click here  

 

Following is the letter the committee has sent out with an opportunity for you to help us in our fund raising drive.   It takes no money from your own pocket but allows us to receive $100 from the bank for each person that follows through.  This is not too hard to do!

 

Dear …… We would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for the prayerful and financial support you give, and have given to the Future Way Healing Center.  As you know, our income is entirely dependent upon donations, gifts, workshops and the dollars generated by the healings of the ministers. The donations received have allowed the healing work for the planet and for the financially challenged clients to continue.
Margarite has recently undergone back surgery and will not be able to give classes for some considerable time.  This has put a huge strain on the budget since the classes and workshops have been the main income that has supported the center, and so we ask for your help at this time.  
We’ve just been made aware of a terrific way for us all to help generate dollars to keep the Center going at this crucial time.  There are some of you who have been looking for an opportunity to give back to the Center but have found it financially unfeasible.   SunTrust Bank currently has an offering called My Cause. Through this program, you can open a checking/debit account for as little as $25 dollars and they will donate $100 to Margarite Batease Fund Inc, your stated non-profit. Accounts opened may be individual or business or both. The account needs to be kept open for 6 months.

 

Please also feel free to share this plan with friends, family and those who might want to help Future Way Healing Center in their healing work for the planet. 

 

Below are the steps to take if you choose to participate:

 

The SunTrust account is a Free Checking, opened with $25 with no fees for the life of the acct.

The deadline for this offer is June 30^th, and visa bank card has to be used by Aug 15^th.

Once opened this account requires no minimum balance.

 

Steps

1. All can be done over the phone (800.485.8982), therefore a person doesn't need to go into the branch of  SunTrust. 

2.  They will send you a signature card which will take about 5 to 7 days. 

3.  When you receive the signature card you need to either send it back or take it to a branch, along with your deposit, minimum $25. 

4.  Next you will receive your visa check card in the mail.

5.  When the check card is received call the number on the card with the pin number to activate the card.

6. You are required to use the card once before Aug 15^th (no minimum charge required)

7.  Go to the following web site URL -    http://www.guidestar.org/pqShowGsReport.do?partner=suntrust&npoId=297792

8. Hit the donate button and fill out the redemption form.  This will generate the Charity $100.00 donation.

    

We wish to thank you in advance for your consideration and for your willingness to help!
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The Wednesday groups have been suspended for a while to allow Margarite to recover from a recent operation on her back. For more information call   (828) 281 1191 or email futureway1987@charter.net  

WED Mar 5   Due to sickness the group was small, but we welcomed a visitor.  As we have pointed out before the combined energy of the participants draws the teaching or service needed.  This was both!  A simple explanation of soul healing path and a reminder of the importance of not interfering in another’s experience, even when asked, this was made abundantly clear.  The solution is to hand the healing guidance over to that person’s soul.  We sent out healing in a different manner than usual by creating the energy ball and asking the soul of the participant to invite the appropriate Angels to imbibe the ball with the necessary color.  We then hummed into the ball in the same manner that we allow healing sound in the Atlantean Temple Sound Group.  In one case we each sent our individual balls watching as the body absorbed the energy.  In another case we combined the balls as we felt that the recipient would be too overwhelmed by the separate ones.  In yet another case we just focused on the person in hospital and sent our individual prayers according her need.   No two people are alike, and in the healing sessions, whether contact or transfer, one experiences the same law as on the life path.  Mind your own business, do not assume that you know what is correct for others or yourself.  The little ego cannot compete with soul!

WED Apr 2   Today Margarite had her spinal operation therefore we did not meet.

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For those interested, here is an update on Margarite:

Healing works!  Margarite is proof of that.  Her recovery is progressing very well, probably ahead of the doctor’s expectation.  Never under-estimate the power of Western medicine combined with healing.   Dawn